I had a hard time connecting with Nat. This surprised me since I was no stranger to self harm throughout my teenage years and I have child with a genetic condition that *may* cause permanent hearing loss within the next few years. But I really did love the flashbacks with Ryker and I practically soaked my pillow with tears when Ryker sends the boys a birthday gift. Still something was missing for me and in the end I'm giving this 3.5 stars.